whining

   You are all in for a treat...I am feeling really goddamn low tonight. The first half of this weekend was pretty damn amazing and the second half was the worst I've had in quite some time. So you know what I'm gonna do? The grown up thing...blog about it.
   I am feeling really alone right now. Everyone is either busy, because they have a life, or no longer speaking to me and there's a few I couldn't give a fuck if I ever see them again. I'm starting to think its time to turn off my phone, delete all social media accounts and resign to a life alone.
   I've spent the last two years since my divorce trying to fill a goddamn hole that's just to big for emotional duct tape. I tried drugs and booze and women. All of it ended hurting me more. I tried music. That failed me, or I failed it, or the other fuckers flunked me....I dunno.
   I'm just so goddamn tired of being alone. Sad thing is anyone I want to come see me wouldn't and anyone who would I don't want to see. I'm such a indecisive child. Whatever. Goodnight.